Who I Wish to Be

I am not who I wish to be

And I wonder will I get there eventually

I hear people telling me who I need to be

But they see only want they wish to see

I wish they’d just understand me

And I wonder will they get there eventually

But I am not yet who I wish to be

I am not who I wish to be

I pretend that I’m perfect on the outside

But I feel like I’m breaking on the inside

I worry that I’ll never be the true me

Cause I cry but yet “can’t express my feelings”

But I am not yet who I wish to be

I am not who I wish to be

I understand that it’ll take some time

But I say that I just wanna speak my mind

I dream of a time when I’ll know who I am

I try to imagine the promised land

And I hope

And I pray

And I wish every night

That when I am who I wish to be

I will finally love me for being me

And I will finally see the world clearly

But

I am not yet who I wish to be